Sounding off!

I am very disappointed and quite angry right now, so am sounding off on my own little page, because no one else reads it .......

I am struggling big time today with the two little people that live here .. yes my two darling children.  How could I have produced such thoughtless and rude people I don't know, but I have had a gut full of rudeless, eye rolling and answering back today! I now feel very frustrated and wonder where I have gone wrong.  I have basic rules and responsibilities for them both, and if those are broken then I will say something, and if I have to keep repeating myself, then I start to get niggled.  I am quite patient, but there reaches a point when I feel like I am talking to myself .  Then it feels that everything is going to pot, I feel frustrated and annoyed, and Mum goes off on one! I guess I need to be more patient, but I am tired, fed up of repeating myself and feel that I am  not being listened to.  My children are usually very respectful and say sorry, but just recently I can see a shift to more teenage rebellion behaviour, and I don't like it!  It feels as though they are constantly pushing the boundaries and seeing what they can get away with, which is why I seem to be constantly on their backs.  I spoke to both of them individually this afternoon and just got rudeness back.  I am sure, knowing them, they will think about it and hopefully apologise later on this evening.  I hate having to be upset before they realise that they have behaved wrongly. We usually have a good relationship, but I feel this is being eroded by their rudeness and lack of respect.  I want to re-address the balance and get it right.  It's such a difficult job and it's also something I always have to do alone as I get very little back up.  It's exhausting, soul destroying and upsetting.   I think I need a large glass of wine and some tlc!

My boss put me in a very difficult situation today at work (although I didn't rise to it) which is making me feel very uneasy and it is unsettling the team.

And I seem to have wiped all the music off my computer .......

Not a happy bunny today.

Roll on the weekend I say.

Now where's that bottle of wine ........................